Anonymity, Lips and Dicks

I live in a country where homosexuality is still not accepted. And frankly I dont think it will ever be accepted in Muslim countries. Which means that gay people over here will always be hidden behind fake pics and names in fear of being exposed. This is how I also entered the gay world on the internet. I had a fake pics and my name was infact "Anonymous". Been living that life for more than a year.

Lately however I have been getting really tired of all this hiding. I see many people on Facebook, Orkut and Manjam who use their own pics as profile pics and I wonder whether they are openly gay or fearless? Coz Oman is a really small place. You are bound to run into someone who knows you or someone else that you know. And still there are people who are not afraid of it. After seeing many such people, I have been getting this urge to use my own pic as well. But I chickened out at the last minute mostly coz of my brother. He is more social than any person I know. Which means he knows alot of people. Every now and then I bump into a cute guy and he turns out to be my brother's friend. So to avoid future complications, I didnt use my face pic. However,me being me, I still wanted to get what I want. I thought about using a body pic like MANY people do. But rejected it the next second. I have waaaaaay more self respect than that. So I cropped one of my pics and focused it entirely on my lips. Now my display pic shows my lips. And every time I see it I cringe coz I sorta feel ashamed for pimping out my lips :P But I HAVE to use some part of me!

It has been around a week or so I guess since my new pic. And since then I have been contacted by people, some of whom were interesting and the others were part of the reason for this post. For me, my new pic represents a part of me. Not sexually. Just a part of me. But for some people, I think it reminds them of blowjobs coz they keep sending me pics of their dicks!! Yes you read it correct! And I actually find it quite wierd coz in the pic my lips arent parted seductively or I dont have my tongue out indicating sexual pleasures! It has been twice now that I start a decent conversation with a guy in a totally friendly way and they email me pics of their penises!! What is up with that?! Before contacting or adding someone, is it no longer a habit of reading their profiles? I read the whole profile before I make a move. But it seems that some people dont. Coz my profile makes it clear that I am not looking for sex. Then why show me your dicks and ask for my body pics?

It is my request to all such people out there that please understand what the other person wants before showing your personal stuff and making inappropriate suggestions. Moreover, if I get to see your dick or ass in just the first few conversations, what interest will there be left in you? No mystery, no discovering of anything. Also, just a reminder in case you havent noticed, your penis belongs in your pants.

On a lighter note, a very happy new year to all of you. May the next year be even more better than 2010 in all respects!

Out of Hand

Hey peeps!!! Sorry for being missing in action for such a long time. Was battling with exams. Thank God the exam period is over. Sadly it didnt go too well. But result is not coming out till 2 months. So I am gonna enjoy my time as much as I can before the dreaded results are out. Anyways. Now lemme get to the topic of this post.

We all have childhood friends with whom the friendship bond is much deeper and stronger than the friendships you develop later in your life. Atleast that's what I think. Childhood friends know you from Adam. They always have a special place in your heart. I have two such friends. One is Brian, whom I mentioned previously on my blog. The other one is Chris. I am giving him the name of Chris coz I am a die hard fan of Grey's Anatomy and Chris to me is like Cristina is to Meredith. Yes if I kill someone I would definitely call him to drag the body with me :) Chris knows that I am gay and he has been there for me so many times that I cant even imagine me being where I am today if I didnt have him. Brian, Chris and I have been friends since 4rth grade. Seen many ups and downs together.

I mentioned previously that I had a huge thing for Brian. That's all a thing of the past now. I love him as a friend and I love his girlfriend as well. Both of them are a cute couple. A few days ago Brian and Chris came over to my place to hang out after a very long time. We usually meet outside but my sister was alone at home so I couldnt leave. We were all lying on my bed talking and I started teasing Chris with my foot. No not sexual teasing. Just how friends play around. He was getting irritated and I was totally enjoying myself :) Suddenly Brian gets up, pins me to the bed and stuck his hand between my legs! No he wasnt grabbing my dick. His hands were going towards my ass. For a few micro seconds I was totally shocked that what just hapenned. Then I pulled his hand from between my thighs and he started playfullly wreslting me. At this point Chris went to the other bed.

Me and Brian have often wrestled before. God knows why he does that but I fully participate partly coz I love the warmth of his body. Now he was lying beside me and he was totally covering Chris's view. At one point I just got tired of struggling and told him he can do whatever he wants to! I knew he would back off seeing that I am not stopping him from touching me. He didnt. He unbuckled my belt. I waited for him to freak out and stop. Then he unbuttoned my jeans. To give him a taste of the freaking out I was experiencing internally, I placed my hand on his crotch expecting him to jump back. He kinda spread his legs! I freaked further and withdrew my hand. But I was pretty curious to see what was on his mind. He slid down the zip of my jeans. My heart was thudding in my skull! But I kept a very cool face so he wouldnt realize that I wont budge and stop doing what ever he is doing! He opened my jeans and placed his hand on my underwear. I  couldnt think straight and just kep waiting for him to stop. He looked at me, smiled and then quickly dug his hand inside my underwear towards my dick! I didnt hesitate for a microsecond and grabbed his hand just before he could feel my dick and I started tugging it out of my underwear. He kept pushing his hand further trying to overcome my force and go back in. I knew he would win coz he is stronger than me so i twisted my body and got his hand out! I think at that point he realized what he was doing coz he laughed and stopped doing it!

Chris had no idea what had hapenned. When I told him later I expected to get an earful of "dont think much bout it", "he was just joking" or "You know how Brian is. He is stupid". But Chris was more shocked than I have ever seen him! He just couldnt understand what had gotten into Brian. Niether could I. I thought about talking to Brian but then thought what's the point. I know he is a man whore for women :P

I have seen some pretty strange behaviour of a few straight guys. One of my cousins tried to kiss me when we started living together even though he is straight and that led to many nights of hot sex. Now Brian did this. What do straight guys want??? You are into VAGINAS!!!!! DONT FORGET THAT!!! Oh and to Brian.....STOP MESSING WITH MY HEAD!!!