Facts and Fiction

I have always been a believer of a monogamous life. You know, the happily ever after with the perfect guy? Your soulmate? The guy with whom I can spend all of my life. The guy with whom I connect at every level emotionally. Who is there all warm and inviting every night in our bed. When I get up, the first thing I see is him sleeping soundly beside me. Watching telly with him at night with my head on his shoulder or the other way around. Sigh. Such a beautiful picture.

But lately this picture seems to be fading away. The more and more I am interacting with gay people out there, the more obvious its becoming that I belonged to 1930's! People nowadays arent exactly looking for a soulmate. They are looking for a bedmate. And that also for one night. I made an account on Facebook. Usually I am not a very social kinda guy. But since a few days I have been thinkin to let out my social streak and see what is out there that the e-world has to offer. I was contacted by many people. Everyday I was added by atleast 5,6 people. But when I started talking to them.....well lets just say I was brought back to reality pretty quickly. They werent interested in who I am, what are my interests, what am I looking for and all that. They were however interested in whether I am a top or a bottom, where do I live, whats my phone number, what are my likes in bed etc. A 14 year old kid claimed that he can be my true love and we can "be together forever". A 32 year old married guy wanted to "connect" with me. People about my age were surprised that I am "gay and looking for friends"???!! Oh my god! How could such a travesty occur right?!! If I have to express my experience in one word.....I would call it a disaster!

So now I am left wondering if I will ever find another person like me. Dont get me wrong. I am not one of those "I will end up alone" drama queens! Even if I do end up alone I know I will be fine because I know I can take care of myself. But still, for a change it would have been nice to have someone who takes care of me. At the very least I had my happy-ever-after image that I could hold on to. I have heard so many times that good men are either married or gay. Well to them I would say good men are either promiscuous or..........well they are only promiscuous! :)

Oh and in case you are wondering, I am still gonna believe in people who are holding out for more than just one night stands. I just wont be looking for them anymore because I read somewhere that if you go looking for something, you dont find it. However you come face to face with it when you are least expecting it. So lets see if this really does work :) 

About Me

I was thinkin about what should I blog about first. There seem to be too many thoughts in my head. But then I decided to blog about myself first....give you an idea about what my blog is gonna be all about. I am a 23 year old guy living in Oman. Been here all my life. I am hopefully gonna finish my studies by next year and then make every effort to be the richest man alive ;)

I am gay and a Muslim. Which means I face a contant battle between doing what I want and doing what is right since Islam doesnt tolerate homosexuality. I have tried walking down the straight path but thats a story for another post. Life has shown me many ups and downs. Some of which I didnt even deserve. But life sucks for everyone right? I try to keep a positive atitude about it all. I read somewhere that if life gives you lemons, make lemon pies. They never told you how badly you get burnt while makin those friggin pies!

Like everyone else, I too am looking for answers. But they dont come easy. So till I get my answers, I am gonna blog about stuff in my life. This blog is gonna be about anything which has either inspired me or depressed me enough to bitch about it. Hope you enjoy my bitching. Cheers.