Back With A Bang!

Hey peeps! Sorry for being missing in action for such a long time. Things had been going rough for me and I was trying to cope with it the best I could. Lemme just brief you on all that hapenned in the past few weeks.

1. I had a job interview which kinda sucked but to my surprise I have been called tomorrow for meeting the CEO of the company. God knows why. My standards arent so high that I would require only the CEO to reject me :P

2. It has been raining in Oman for the last 2,3 days. THANK GOD for that. Oman usually has only two seasons, Summers and more Summers. So when it rains, its like a huge deal for me coz I just LOVE the rain :)

3. Glee won 3 Golden Globes for which I am SO delighted! Also I found out that it has been made official, Anne Hathaway is gonna be Kurt's lesbian aunt on Glee :D She is one woman for whom I can be straight. Well she and Diana Agron ofcourse :P

4. FINALLY I can see changes in my body due to gymming. Its been a year and I was getting so de-motivated. But now I am gonna hit the weights with all that I got.

5. Lastly, I was dating a guy for around a month and a few days ago it ended.

Yup, if you havent guessed already, the last point was the reason of me going through a rough patch. But before I get into details, a little background. My last relation was with Aiden and when that ended, I swore never to get involved and then heart broken by anyone. The feeling of being rejected really sucks. So I have been chatting with a few guys, there have been meetings as well. But strictly friendship. Around December I met this guy on Facebook and we started exchanging emails. We just clicked. Rarely do I have chemistry with someone. And with him I felt real comfortable. So after a month of exchanging emails, we met and it was a wonderful date. Coffee and then walk on the beach. Just perfect. A few days ago we met again. I went to his place and we watched a movie. It all seemed good. But on that date I realized that we dont have a future. Also there was an issue coz I am a Muslim and I try to observe Islamic practices as much as I can. And I dont think he understood that. Dont get me wrong, the guy is a great person. But we both understood that we had to stop dating.

Goin a little off topic now. I have been reading articles on the net and people's comments on them and it made me realize how much racism there is towards Muslims. It really upset me that people tend to judge the whole community based on the actions of a few individuals. But all that is for another post. Anyways, when it ended with this guy coz of religious issues, it kinda hit me pretty hard. No, I dont love him or anything. Which is why I couldnt understand either that why was I so down. I guess maybe I felt rejected and the reaction of people against Islam all got mixed up. Also, I tend to get attached to people real quickly. So i cut off from everyone and shut myself totally coz people kept asking me whats wrong and I literally couldnt bring myself to talk about it.

Everytime I have faced a hurdle or a heartbreak, I keep giving myself pep talks. I cant talk to my family or friends coz they dunno I am gay. Sure Chris knows but he is busy in his own life. So its me alone. And I try to be my own support system. Usually I am able to pull myself through. But after seeing so many ups and downs, this time I was out of pep talks. I was moody, snappish and didnt wanna talk to anybody. Yesterday I got up and something felt different. I realized I am tired of being depressed! Sure life sucks and instead of getting better, sometimes it gets worse. But there comes a point when you just get sick of feeling down. You can either wallow in self pity or you can try to make lemon pies. I choose to make lemon pies. So even though life keeps throwing crap at me, I am gonna face it, straighten my shoulders, head held high, smile and say to Life.................

Aaah. Picture is worth thousand words. Or atleast enough for the what I wanted to say. And yes, in case you are wondering, the pic is mine. Till the next post, Adios.